I love myself. You should too!


“You yourself, as much as anybody in the entire universe, deserve your love and affection”

I’ve fallen in love, without even trying. Without wanting to. Falling is easy. Learning who to give that love to is a little more tricky. We all experience love differently throughout our lives, but it changes us none the less. Some for the better and some far worse. But hopefully you learn from it. Just imagine, if you can love someone else so completely, so blindy and unwillingly, I’m certain you can love yourself.

“Love yourself first and everything else falls into line. You really have to love yourself to get anything done in this world.”
– Lucille Ball

The journey of love starts as a child. For most children, love is family. It’s your parents doting on you. It’s your siblings sharing their toys. It’s vacations and laughing and so carefree. Just…

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Music 🎼

A little over a week I heard this song on the radio called Anxiety it’s a song by Julia Michaels featuring Selena Gomez. Some of the lyrics really spoke to me. I’m sure that a lot of people struggling with Social Anxiety can identify with this song.

I got all these thoughts, running through my mind
All the damn time and I can’t seem to shut it off
I think I’m doing fine most of the time
I think that I’m alright, but I can’t seem to shut it off
I got all these thoughts, running through my mind
All the damn time and I can’t seem to shut it off
I think I’m doing fine most of the time
I say that I’m alright, but I can’t seem to shut it off
Shut it, shut it, yeah

But all my friends, they don’t know what it’s like, what it’s like
They don’t understand why I can’t sleep through the night
I’ve been told that I could take something to fix it
Damn, I wish it, I wish it was that simple, ah
All my friends they don’t know what it’s like, what it’s like


Went on Facebook today and saw all these first day of school photos for my friend’s kids. It made me feel a bit sad. So many of my friend’s are married and have kids. Then there’s me still single….wondering if I’ll ever get married or get to be a mom.

I try my best to keep busy and not myself dwell on things but it still hits me once in a while and then the tears start to fall. I no longer allow myself to stay down for long anymore more though gotta climb back up!

Photo Credit Mike Wilson


Get to know me before you judge me!

In the world we live, as we get older we begin our search for a partner. Someone to share our hopes and dreams. Someone who will be there through life’s ups and downs.

When you are dealing with social anxiety and depression, it’s hard to let anyone in because you feel they just won’t understand or take the time to get to know you.

I recently decided to put myself out there by setting up a profile on a Muslim matchmaking site.  I did get some matches and talked to a few of them.  Sometimes someone will say something that just right away offends you. For me, it’s usually a jab at the fact that I work in the retail industry.  Every industry has positives and negatives. Currently, I like where I work and I have co-workers who have been understanding and supportive when I’ve struggled with my anxiety.

I was asked by a guy I was talking to “are you going to work retail all your life? Do you have any goals or do you just want to get married?”  I was a little offended by this. Of course, I have goals just like everyone else.   If you actually take the time to get to know me, I’ll share how I like working with people and would eventually like to work on the ground in guest services for a major airline. I’m hoping that working for an airline will make it easier to explore new places and do some nature and travel photography.  I’d also like to share my mental health story so that I can help others struggling with depression or anxiety, and let them know that they are not alone.

Photo Credit Upsplash

No blues this birthday

There have been Birthdays where I just didn’t feel happy. I’d start thinking about how the life of a person my age should be and I would feel depressed about being single and not having a career that was respected.

Last year my counsellor told that I should enjoy my birthday cause it’s “My Day”. This year I kept busy with work during the week . The day before my birthday I had hair cut and did a bit of shopping. On my birthday I went out to a place called The Forks with my family and then went out for dinner. It was a pretty good birthday 🙂


So the past two weeks I’ve been working on getting healthy. I visited my doctor, he was understanding and listened to how I was feeling. I go back next week for a follow up. I’m also looking in to seeing a clinical psychologist.

When my anxiety gets bad is I have poor eating habits. So I’ve been makings sure I’m eating 3 meals a day, eating a multi-vitamin daily and drinking water. I’m also trying to wake up and sleep at the same time everyday. I try to make sure I don’t spend too much time alone in my room on the days I’m off work.Image taken by me